Is it just me or does it seem like everyone around me is pregnant? This is not surprising considering I'm a 22 year old married Mormon who associates with the likeness, but I'm amazed. Last night it seemed as though my facebook was bombarded with baby news. Don't get me wrong, I am thrilled for my friends and acquaintances because this wonderful news, but I'm a little jaded.
Let's count them shall we? Three women I work with, one great friend from home, one old roommate, and one friend from class. I am being suffocated by all of this news. Where is the novelty? I suppose asking for novelty when it comes to childbearing is silly since its literally been happening since the beginning of mankind, but I don't want to be just another pregnant girl on my friends' news feed.
This might make me sound disingenuous, but I'm promise I'm not. I greatly look forward to having children and do often wish that the time would come sooner rather than later, but Forrest and I want to spend time growing, traveling, and at least graduating college. Once you have a child you can never go back. This isn't a death sentence by any means, but I think there is truth to all of the advice that I am getting about waiting to have children. What am I in a rush for? I want to leave the continent of North America. I want to travel Europe with the love of my life. I want to see ancient ruins and see for my self what the world has to offer. I think doing this will make my life and my children's life better for it.
I don't plan on waiting forever, because I know that I wouldn't make it that long. I wish to have a little bundle to exert all of my love and adoring on, but I know that patience is a virtue. I have a husband that I can and should be exerting that on because Lord knows, once a baby comes he or she will be what I live for.
I know that every couple needs to do what is right for them and they need to counsel with the Lord in this important decision and it is not my place to judge, which hopefully I don't. I just have a new found conviction about Forrest and I's decision to wait a couple more years. I know that when I have a baby it will be the most precious thing to happen to our little family and that's all that I can want, but I will also have lived a little before then.
Here's to the hope that I don't eat my words and accidentally get pregnant!
